9/20/88 - 4/13/09
life has cut you off too short♥
this is the 3rd post i'm writing about you today.
i found out about your death this morning from my mother.
last night i thought about you.
i haven't seen you since last summer...
and i missed you. i wanted to know if you wanted to hangout since we only live a town over from each other. but first i wanted to know if you remembered me! (although it'd be impossible not to... ha ha i mentioned you to my mom this morning and that's when she told me about your accident. i was shocked. i am shocked. i couldn't stop crying. i can't stop crying. i wish i knew about this sooner. i wish i went to your wake. i wish i knew about this beforehand so i could have seen how you were doing, at least talked to you, you know? i wanted to hear good things about you since seeing each other in rehab isn't the best place to have a last memory with someone. especially with me walking out abruptly without any goodbyes. i wish i got your phone number then. i've been thinking about you all day and i'll continue to do so... i've been wondering if contacting you earlier would have made me happier... or i don't know what the word is... but i regret not knowing you better. i regret not trying to find you sooner. however we did share a few good times and some good laughs in rehab. in rehab!!! who could have thought an hour away, two people would meet that live a town over from each other?! silly, silly. i heard a lot of crazy stuff that i could have told you but i'll tell you anyway one day. i hope you receive this (also) and respond... somehow. i truly wish i tried to find you sooner. i know i did at one point but i couldn't find your last name and i thought that why would you want me contacting you out of nowhere? i wanted to be your friend the minute i saw you - i told whoever i was sitting next to on the ugly couches at endeavor house that i thought you were so goodlooking and i couldn't wait to get over to the other house. how silly? of course i don't deny that though, haha. i do miss you and i do think about you. i have been. i wonder if i ever crossed your mind once or twice? i hope to see you one day. i know i would love that. and again, i hope you receive this. rest in peace, tommie. rest in peace. oh, and all of my heart goes out to your family. all of my heart. they were the first people i thought of when my mom told me this.